Like a cancer of sorts emotionally and the pain rises now and then to sting your heart and throw ugliness into your thoughts. Last evening I arose to a place in a 'sinking of sorts' and came back swimming today. After much sleep and realization that I do not enjoy the pity state anymore I am choosing to move forward and seek God for advice and to work through this strange sojourning I have to do in the life I have been given.
As far as I can see I have life and I choose to live it. Even if it not the life I desire it is the life I am given and I will relish, embrace, feel every single drop of it. For some have not been given a life as long as mine and I am blessed.